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Wednesday, January 31, 2007
it's been a long time since i last went home alone...
coz normally there will be people to take bus with me ...
or at least to the bus stop...
it's a weird feeling ...
as i step out of the sch...
feeling that there isnt anyone arnd me ...
seriously...
i do enjoy the peace...
yet the loneliness is rather "scary" in a sense...
but yeh...
it made me miss the times that i went home alone...
it gave me time to think abt alot of stuff...
you know... stuff...
anw...i just don understand why when ppl just happen to not smile and sit alone and think abt stuff...
ppl say things like: eh don emo leh...
huH? ok...
define "emo"
its elmo w/o a "L"
think abt it...
朋友最近还好吗?
要开心噢...=)
6:57 PM
inching towards the truth
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
press stop or the red cross to stop the bkgrnd music...
den play the vid...
nice song..=)
7:37 PM
inching towards the truth
Saturday, January 27, 2007
你说你是雨天
而我是太阳耀眼
说我不适合出现在
你住的灰色世界
想晒干你的泪
却被你简单拒绝...
我忽然期待天空能下一场雨
让我在冰冷的夜慢慢了解你...
我能够期待晴天下的雨
你说你不怕黑
一个人也无所谓
独自撑伞走过伤悲
不再和爱有关联
我想要带你飞
9:41 PM
inching towards the truth
i always feel that i talk at the wrong moment...
guess...
i shall just go into silent mode for some time?...
guess so...
朋友要好好过噢!
保重...=)
1:50 PM
inching towards the truth
a bad day...
a bad start...
a bad end...
2am... and the rain has stopped...
time to slp...
2:08 AM
inching towards the truth
Monday, January 22, 2007
looking upon you...
i attempted to walk up...
but just at that very moment...
a glimpse of him walking at the very direction...
made me turned back...
i wasn't meant to be there...
i thought to myself...
and there...
from a distance...
saw what was meant to be...
on the same path,the same place...
the two...
while i...
went the other direction...
and walked on...
destiny? maybe...
i never believed those stuff...
but to some extent it seems so fearfully true...
on the brighter side...
at least i wasnt there with the two ...
which may turn out to be awfully awkward...
at least i tot it would be...
so i rather be alone...
and leave for the better...
my entry may seem to be a bit depressing ...
in some sense yes... but yeah... im like this...
i always thought that this way of writing is much more beautiful...
but...its all the same i guess...
it doesnt matter to me much anymore...
nth matters...except...
5:59 PM
inching towards the truth
Sunday, January 21, 2007
sometimes...
it's really hard to keep everything to myself...
the fact that i really have something to say...
something to let u know...
something that u might have already known...
but yet...
thinking of the possible consequences...
the possibility of hurting someone...
the possibility of hurting friendship...
i think it's better to hurt oneself...
then to affect others...
i know that a clear line was drawn...
u regard me as a fren...
but...
what can i say...
我只能说...祝福你...
hope that slping will help...
if i am able to...
10:55 PM
inching towards the truth
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
i realise something....
it seems that no matter wat it is...
the more i say or talk abt it...
the more i think abt it...
and the more i wanna explain for myself...
and the worse situations get...
so guess...
i shall shut it...
for the better...
sry...
9:46 PM
inching towards the truth
haiz...
R-tard, i am...
and again i did and say stupid stuff...
sometimes it's really better to keep some things to yourself...
things should be kept what it should be...
and not cross borders...
dear fren...if you're reading...
stay happy...
gone with the wind...
12:28 AM
inching towards the truth
Tuesday, January 16, 2007
如果时间能够为你而倒流,
真的好想再见你那一面.
但那已经成了回忆里的礼物,
一直陪我上路.
被收在心里的感受,
有多么的悲伤,
但却又无可奈何.
这一切都无所谓,
只要能再见你一面,
哪怕那将会是最后一次,
我也无怨无悔...
(= -->___<-- =)
7:47 PM
inching towards the truth
Monday, January 15, 2007
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....
sometimes i seriously need a hole to hide myself...
zzzz...
do stupid things..... omg la...
even say stupid stuff...
zzzz...
why like tt...
zzzz...
haiz...
sry...
im a serious R-tard...
gone case...
how i wish it would happen again...
even if it's one last time...
9:55 PM
inching towards the truth
Sunday, January 14, 2007
studying sucks..
i cant get anything into my head during non-exam periods.
ahhhhhhhhh! *poof!*
4:20 AM
inching towards the truth
Saturday, January 13, 2007
Some random posting..
TOPIC: Friendship
I want you to know,
I was always watching you.
You were always the best,
always shining so bright.
Just watching you makes me happy,
and that's why,
I'm always behind you.
I just wanted you to talk to me,
like we used to.
I tried to catch up to you but,
i kept falling behind.
I wish i can remember how all this started,
but i do remember how it used to be long ago,
that was the best time of my whole life.
I knew that no matter what my problem was,
as soon as I talk to you,
it would be gone.
You were always there for me
when i needed you
or even when i didn't.
you are the only one in my life that i can truely count on.
And though i still watch you now,
its frm a distance.
I know it must be that way,
I want you to know..
I've given up hope for wat might have been
but I've kept the memories of what was
I have one small favour to ask.
I want you to always be happy
no matter what happens,
and the reason is...
you were my best friend in the whole world,
the very best.
good bye...
BEST LINE:"I've given up hope for wat might have been
but I've kept the memories of what was"
3:54 PM
inching towards the truth
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
Is it THAT difficult to tell ...
is it THAT difficult to feel...
is it THAT difficult to say...
its the fear in me...
its the fear within...
that the answer isnt wat i expected...
that the answer isnt that pleasant...
but whatever it is...
stay well,take care...
even when i know waiting won't have much effect...
i'll still be waiting...
you ought to know...
10:46 PM
inching towards the truth
Saturday, January 06, 2007
i always thought that waiting would change something
but i'm starting to understand...
even if tears went dry...
things may never change...
everything u've said...
was taken seriously...
yet,
it turned into a joke...
saying sry and it turned from bad to worse...
and so instead i gave a smile...
even when it isnt real...
but who cares what's inside of me...
"the feeling isnt there"
was the reason...
and u left me
just like an empty house...
the lights switched off...
and everything ends...
10:37 PM
inching towards the truth
new year
new skin
still the same
4:47 PM
inching towards the truth