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Friday, April 28, 2006
how i wish something could happen...
that very first step that is always the hardest to take...
one move will make my day...
i really hope it will come true 1 day...
11:10 PM
inching towards the truth
went for a leadership course today...
it is SUPPOSED to teach us about decision making.
well...
its correct to say that everything we do is what we decide.
even if there isnt any decision..
u decide not to decide...
well..
QNS:is it OUR own decision whether we come to this world or not?
any1 with the ans pls tell me..
11:05 PM
inching towards the truth
Monday, April 24, 2006
death is inevitable,
so are u in my life.
going on this trip,
i ended the story with a note.
if ever i tried to shout out ur name,
breaking the cold war between us.
i do hope that i could be forgiven.
the voice within me is struggling to get out,
reaching out for u,
losing the control.
i look at you frm a safe distance,
even though deap beneath,
i hope i can reach for u.
however sad, i know,
im already ur past.
nvr again should i bother u.
i shall always rmb this feeling that i have for u.
let this goodbye go with the wind.
'sigh-ing' off
11:18 PM
inching towards the truth
Saturday, April 22, 2006
at this poin in time,
this stage of life,
this kind of age...
do u rmb the last time u cried?
for a lot of us,
it has been a long time since we last cried.
for me,
im gonna tell u the last time i cried.
it was last year,
reason-life is tough
stupid?
i agree...
many ppl cry because of alot of things-studies,stress,relationship etc
but me-life.
i still rmb..
it was at the bus stop near my hse
when i was waiting for the bus and talking to my fren.
then i started thinking about how's life so far.
well, u noe wat's nxt.
tears.
i don really wanna let other ppl noe that i cried,
so i din say much at that moment.
before i went into upper sec,
i was thought to be someone who don gets angry and sad easily.
guess tts the change in puberty?=) lol
kk
well
that time i cried for hrs and hrs..
how embarrassing.
well.
i cant stop back then..
tears were flowing like no1's business...
it was said that men tend to keep everything to themselves...
maybe..
i still recall...
that time i was really crying my heart out...
how tough is it to carryon with life..
i just wish to have my life ez and carefree.
how naive...
well..
my tears do shed for other ppl too...
but those tears of mine...
will never be known to others...
"cry and i'll cry alone,
tears shed on the full moon,
heart shack in pitch darkness.
how i wonder,when will the nxt drop of tear come."
12:59 PM
inching towards the truth
Friday, April 21, 2006
depress...
haiz...
at this point in time,
this very moment,
this stage of life.
i really miss a lot of the past.
i do...
those days...
how i wish...
how i wonder...
even though it will not happen,
even a dream will be sufficient..
even a dream...
please i beg of u ...
please...
thank you...
11:17 PM
inching towards the truth
i'm really really really pissed with humans...
ever wonder,
lets say this freind of ur's always say other ppl kp,
and ask them not to be kp.
and YET he himself kp me.
how ironic is that,
and what else can i say.
i never win fights,i mean NEVER!
so well let it be la.
no much ppl tt i noe of really care about other ppl's feelings when they act...
how irritating is that.
imagine u are living in a world full of insensitive ppl...
well i admit im not very sensitive as well,
but not to the extent that words 'kills'
haiz...
my life?
SUCKS big time...
study~
11:09 PM
inching towards the truth
Monday, April 17, 2006
for this entry...i'll vent my anger...
FIRSTLY!THOSE BLOODY PPL THAT TOOK 334 ,
334 IS THE ONLY BUS THAT STOP AT MY STREET,
AND IT'S BLOODY PACKED.
THOSE STUPID PPL CAN JUST TAKE THE BLOODY 98 THAT IS MOSTLY DOUBLE DECKER
INSTEAD OF 334 WHICH IS ALL SINGLE DECK,
98 GOES TO THOSE VERY STOP THAT MANY PPL ALIGHT AND THEY RATHER NOT TAKE 98 WHICH IS MORE SPACIOUS THAN TO 'EAT SARDINE' EVERY EVENING ON 334
BLOODY HELL..
ITS NOT LIKE 98 GOES 1 BIG ROUND,
ITS AROUND THE SAME STOPS AS 334,
STUPID PPL,
MAKING LIFE DIFF FOR PPL,
THEN WHEN MOST OF THESE PPL GET OFF AT STOPS THAT HAS 98 BUSES,
THEY GIVE THAT BLOODY KP FACE WHEN U ARE STANDING THERE,
THINKING THAT WAT?
IM BLOCKING UR WAY?
U ARE OCCUPYING SPACES LA WTH...
NXT...
SBS PPL, U KNOW THAT 334 IS ALWAYS PACK DURING PEAK HRS
AND ALL THE BLOODY BUSES IS SIGLE DECK
USE UR BRAIN AT LEAST?
phew...
after i vent my anger , i feel much better...
haiz...
i feel that yr 2006 isnt for me...
a lot of crap happen,
im really pissed at times due to stupid things,
its like a lot of bad stuff had happened to me..
retribution maybe...
well..
it is meant to be and it will be...
haiz...
8:59 PM
inching towards the truth
Sunday, April 09, 2006
now tts the music i appreciate..
nice ...
10:43 PM
inching towards the truth
Saturday, April 08, 2006
recently i came across this band piece call 'Gaia' in short.
its really nice in the begining...
really touching....
my goosebumps nvr fails to stand everytime i hear the trpt solo...
however...
when it reaches the middle portion...
some kind of war style can be heard...
which i don really appreaciate...
but all in all it sounded quite nice...
its a nice piece...
with flashes of pictures appearing in ur mind while listening..
reall nice (the beginning..)
i miss playing overtures...
not exactly overtures but more of music that is nice
those touching music...
slow soothing touching sad sorrowful
tt is the music i really aprreciate...
how i wish all the band pieces are like those...
3:47 PM
inching towards the truth
Sunday, April 02, 2006
you might have forgotten all about me,
but i would never forget u.
that lonesome eyes of yours,
is what truely mesmerised me.
captivated by those eyes,
seems so devastating.
i can never imagine the state i'll be now,
if i didn't see those beautiful eyes of yours.
thank you,
... .
11:12 PM
inching towards the truth