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Thursday, May 24, 2007
22nd may 1989
on that day i was born....
after 18 yrs...
on the very same day of the year 2007
i'm at home...
shut off from everything( mainly because the electricity supply was cut off)
i purposely switched off my phone...
so that i can be on my own...
or at least i hope so...
i spent the whole day
thinking....
thinking of the pass 18yrs i've been alive...
all the rubbish i've done...
all the crap...
and hoping for the better...
and as usual...
nth came...
guess i'm just not worthy enuff...
guess i'm just not worthy enuff...
there's so much things i wanna say...
just to tell you...
but i chose not to...
it's nvr great to drag ppl along...
guess i better keep it to myself...
for the better of yours...
for those who din expect me to come back to this blog...
well, lucky u...
u found a new post...
life does go on...
and guess it's abt time i try to go on as well...
goodbye ppl...
hell ye good bye...
11:55 AM
inching towards the truth
11:55 AM
inching towards the truth
Saturday, February 17, 2007
i just found out abt something...
something that really broke it...
something that nearly made me cry...
but i cant...
coz i know this would happen anw...
so if any of you know wat im talking abt...
pls refrain frm talking abt it to me...
i beg of you...
pls...
and of my posts so far...
it's trash... ignore them...
i shall f off frm this blog...
this blog shall end here...
leave me alone...
if any of u wanna help...
DON'T...
don't even try to be nice with me...
when u know u gonna hurt me...
coz it's gonna hurt real bad when it does...
i rather u all not care abt me...
it's better that way...
i'm sure abt it...
don't blame me for my hostility...
im no longer the nice wk u noe...
coz im tired of being walked all over...
get all of your feets off me...
this very moment...
im no longer the same...
all of u out there should be happy now...
you all got wat u wanted...
so f off frm me...
im not gonna cry...
i'm not...
i'm not... really...
hopefully...
The truth is tearing me up...i cant even recognize this place...the endless road without a stop sign...can't even find a stranger...why am i still holding back my tears...in this loneliness there's nth to fear...why am i still talking to myself...even when knowing you have the key to my cell...this is drawing me deeper each time...how do i get out of this...i think i nvr will...im sorrie...
i've given up hope for what might have been...
and kept what was...
goodbye...
3:49 PM
inching towards the truth
i really like little kids...
they are just so innocent...
with no motive in mind...
i miss those days as a kid...
there isnt a need for me to think or to vexed abt...
but now...
as i grow older each day...
it got more complicated...
how i wish i din grow up...
为什么一定要长大
为什么世界变得那么复杂
我不想独自一人面对眼泪留下
我只想静静看着她
这也不行吗
我看还是算了吧
2:19 PM
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微笑这世界充满太多假象,
你看到的和真实往往不一样.
别难过,别沮丧,
答应我,
要保护自己别受伤.
要记得我将会守护你心中的天堂,
我会等待你回答...
我说过的话那么容易忘吗?
我会很有礼貌的退后.
祝福的味道,
会永在你身旁.
你那多完美的微笑
你该知道... =)
ur shadows, will always remain at the corner of my heart...
ps: copyright law... =x
9:53 AM
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Friday, February 16, 2007
more than __ yrs since it happened...
sometimes i really think im too naive...
i always tot that _________________...
but yeah... it didn't ...
and i think it's gonna stay that way...
no... it must and definitely will stay that way...
i know it must be...
im just being plain stupid or pure R-tard...
well, i m...
but who gives a damn...
even i don't ...i really don't...
coz even if i do... it wouldn't change anything...
i just can't seem to understand why ________...
i'll never know the ans...
never...
i suddenly tot about birthdays...
coz there were alot of birthdays these 2 months
i always tried to avoid that day...
coz that day just have no significance to me...
for the past few yrs...
i've been avoiding it... and trying to forget abt that day...
i "pon" sch on that day last yr...(so that i can slp tru it with my mum forgeting abt it)
the previous yr i rushed home right after sch so that i can stone tru it again...
and similarly for the yrs before...
for those yrs...
i have always hope for that something to happen...
even if it's a small one ..yet
as expected...
it didn't, that's why i nvr liked that day...
though i at least tried to tag along when it's others' bday...
but mine... no...never...
i just hope for that small thing to happen...
yet... it never did...
it never will...
never...
let's hope i can forget that day this yr...
is my wish, ever gonna come true?
*everything written here will stay in here...and here only...
no where else... nth should leave here...
...
8:58 PM
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it's raining heavily inside of me...
Mother nature it is...
when one side is raining...
the other side will be sunny...
always look at the brighter side...
coz that is the only side u'll see...
the other side would be too gloomy...
and you wont get to see anything...
Sorrie for everything ..
... will the rain ...
... ever gonna stop ...
12:31 AM
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Thursday, February 15, 2007
today went Cl's hse for mahjong session... but i din play much...
i played with his nephew (joffre/bing yang)
he has a pair of really beautify eyes man...
big eyes!!!
he'll grow up to be one good looking guy man...
KENDO!
=)
failed attempts by joffre taking photos...
10:50 PM
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Wednesday, February 14, 2007
today, came back home alone again...
yupp, it's "peace day"
a day whereby i can have some sort of peace...
and think about things...
yeah... the gloomy and sad me again...
but not to fear, masked man is here(that's what TZC calls me)...
well that explains why my horoscope is gemini
2 extreme personalities.
nvm
on the way home, i tot of some typical teenage tots that is so common:
when im no longer here...
will anyone rmb me...
will anyone know im already gone...
will anyone look for me...
this is wat i think...
firstly, ppl will get over it someday somehow, and thus forgets about you.
secondly, why desire for attention so much?
thirdly, there's no pt if they do rmb u...
you will nver know...
anyway, i tot about alot of others things on the way back,
but while i was thinking, i totally missed the bus stop and sort of twisted my little finger while trying to grab onto the pole...
well guess i was thinking too far off...
there's another thing that i tot of ... that is emotions
this may be the worst thing that could ever exist in humanity
ppl are driven by emotions
i maybe able to control my actions, my words, my brain
but not my heart...
time passed swiftly,
and once again it's time to say goodbye.
ppl say separation will make ppl stronger...
well let's hope it's true...
there's a saying: "what has a beginning, has an end"...
well it's true...
just like the universe...
it began with a point in space that contains all the energy...
and explodes forming all the stars and planets and every single thing that ever existed...
but this is going to end...
it is said that the explosion caused everything to move away frm this point in space...
and one day... everything will be absorb back to that point in space...
how cool is that...
everything gone just like that...
i shall end with this beautiful phrase...
...beautiful stories always have a sad ending...
...my life will be what it will be...
...Happy CNY... =)
5:55 PM
inching towards the truth
Monday, February 12, 2007
it's raining...
it doesn't matter...
10:33 PM
inching towards the truth
Thursday, February 08, 2007
another tired day...
same as yesterday...
din talk much..
coz too lazy to talk ...
was falling asleep tru everything...
so wat to do?
pinch!
ouch...
pain but yeah... works abit...
maybe its because when pinching urself u cant feel much...
slpy...
zzz
anw... shall stop blogging for a while... for some reasons..
study for tests...
laziness...
but u all can still tag...
visit TANZECHUAN's blog for some joke to laugh at...
adieuz
8:05 PM
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